Monthly Archives: August 2007

I like this rule of 5. Jack is right. sustained effort and whole lot of heart will carry you to success. Let’s say that you save 25pesos in 5 years. when you reach 5 years from now you will get P45500! Pretty amazing! With just small efforts, it bloomed into a gigantic saving. I myself started. I save P30 a day. A pretty simple concept but has strong impact on your financial or even on other stuffs.

All of us have our own fears. Some are really scary and some are weird. Phobia is a dislike of something. As for me, I am afraid of… frogs! It started out when I was 4yrs old I think. Frogs were coming in our sala. At first I wasn’t afraid of them (AFAIR). But one day,(I don’t know what we were playing but I know I went on the end of the couch) I was looking if anybody sees me but to my surprise, someone is looking at me… A frog! I saw the frog beside my feet jumping facing the wall! That is what started my fear on frogs. The way they look at you and those crooked skin. It makes me chill! I don’t know how will I overcome this fear but I hope I will

Do you the story of the 8 piston engine of Henry Ford? At first when it was not yet invented engineers of Henry says it is impossible to make it. But what Henry did was pursue the experiment. After months and years of experimenting, all hardships came out wasted. It is impossible to make it says his engineers. Henry persisted that they will make it. No matter how long it will take them they will make it. He leaned on to his plan. Even though there is no assurance that they will succeed. No clear sight of the future. But with God’s grace along with determination they manage to make the first 8 piston engine. Soon it became famous and was imitated by others.

Like Henry Ford, I have a plan too. But it is not a 10 piston engine. It is a one-man-team to build his dream computer. I will cling to my idea of studying while earning. I won’t give up. I know there are a lot more inspiring stories than Ford’s. A lot more burden they carried before but heads up they faced. I too want to work hard for something I really desire. I want to feel proud of myself that I have gained something on my own. It is going to be a big achievement for me and I hope I would get it asap or hustle for it till got gives it to me.

“Things may come to those who wait, but only the things left by those who hustle” -Abraham Lincoln

All my life I just waited for things to come to me. I am a spoon-feed kid. My assignments, projects, things I do (mostly, they always change my answers because there is something wrong and they say theirs is better) I just slouch around and wait for the guava to drop. Maybe this is the cause now of my slowness and laziness or is it just me. The universe rewards those who act. It is definitely true. Nothing will happen to you if you just sit there. You must act in order to get what you want. Be active! Act on the things you want to achieve. Believe you can do them without doubts. Quit waiting for chances! Find them! Even if the chances are sitting right beside you, You wouldn’t know that it is chance right? (did you get that?).

Quit waiting for the right moment! I don’t believe in that. Every moment is the right moment if you want that moment to be the right moment.It is really up to you. You must act! I know a girl who waits for the right moment, well I think she is just playing safe because of an earlier heartbreak. Now she has a new suitor, right from the start I had a hunch that she likes him. Yeah, I always tell her that. But she keeps denying. Now, She admits she likes the gut. But sadly, The guy I think thought twice now. Because my friend sort of tested him. Now, she plays peter pan. “You will only see the full beauty of a sun when it is swallowed by the sea” sa tagalog “Malalaman mo lang kung gaano kahalaga ang isang tao o bagay kapag wala na ito sa iyo”

I always here girls say “kung siya talaga, siya talaga” They have a lot of pride inside them. Maybe that is the thing I am feel weird about girls. Maybe now she learns her lesson. “Hindi ninyo kasi alam kung gaano kahirap maghintay eh”.

Hustle like there is no tomorrow, Live like it will be your last day, Follow your heart. It will lead you to the thing you want most. If and only if you act on it.

I always see my cousins Iani and Tesa playing with their toys. Yes, you would say, it is typical for kids, but an unusual thing they do while playing is they pretend to be someone or something with whole heart. Yeah, when Tesa says she is a frog, she sits and jump and imitates the sound of a frog. When Iani pretends to be an elephant, She stomps all over the sofa and growls like it. They live their fantasies. That is a good start for them. They act as if what they want to be. When I ask them what are they doing they will say, “sshh kuya Kirby we are just pretending”

I remember when I was about 5 or 6 yrs old. We were pretending to be BackStreet Boys. hahaha. Those were the good old days with my friend Rens. We would come down our stairs at our old house at Ligtasan and singing “I want it that way” while making a hand gestures. We had a mirror at the bottom of the stairs and we could clearly see what we look like. We even have sunglasses sometimes. I could still remember how I feel when pretending. I feel like one of the BackStreet Boys and we are singing on a live audience. I feel I am known all over the world. How nice to feel that again. You feel the depth even though its just fantasy.

Now, tides have changed. We don’t like backstreet boys anymore. We have our own goals and roads to polish. We have our own “pretending” now. I hope it would be a help for us what we have been doing when we were young and carry it until now.

“I envision my dream for it to be real”. That is what Jack Canfield says. I totally 100% agree with him. I visualize almost everything I want. The first on my list is to assemble my own personal computer. I visualize my gigabyte motherboard with an Intel quad core2 duo processor with 160 gigabyte hard disk with a Samsung LCD monitor and a DVD combo. Any of you would sure like that. And I want to achieve that  before my 22nd birthday. Yes, I gave myself 5 years and besides, I don’t work yet. Well if I could have it earlier I would. I accept donations! (just joking…. but if you want to help me then it is a two thumbs-up). Second is study while I earn money. Wow, hows that. I think my vocational course will do the trick. I could also save some for college. Even if I just earn P20 a day it will be 36500 in 5 yrs! More than enough to buy me my desired personal computer.

I am just showing you how visualization work. With positive thoughts and positive mental attitude, you will see your future brightly.

Too often I get trapped on my comfort zone. I just go with my friends before and never meeting anyone besides them. I circulated my friendship with them and never opened even a slight opening for others. I just got scared that they won’t like me when they will know me more. Fear swallows me first instead of guts. A reason too I can add is that I’m shy. I shut the door to people who want to make friends with me and just mingle with those around me. Sometimes I feel so selfish on not making friends with them. I feel guilty. They talk to me, I don’t talk to them. When they offer me some things, I refuse. Pride surfaces on those circumstances. I am also arrogant to them. I look at personal appearance too. BUT.. All those things are way before.

This can be a chance for me to correct what I have done wrong and open all doors to all possibilities of a friendship. I will be active and put aside my passive attitude. I would gladly welcome all those who want to be close to me and also those who don’t. All you have to do is ask. ^^

I think my first mentors were my mama, papa, lola , uncle Duds and Uncle Jun. They were my first friends, first playmates, first enemies, first on everything I presume. They were there from the start and I thank them for that. The making of “kirby” started when I went to school for the first time. I think it was in Sto. Cristo School in Tarlac. I have a PA in the form of my late lolo. He was my bantay, tagapagtanggol, tagahatid, my manager when i was studying there. We have a great bond that even though he is gone I remember it all. Even my Anti Tess. I think I am his paborito when she was alive. On my younger years we go to her house in Macabulos. All of my cousins go there for an unknown reason when I was young. But as I grew up bit by bit I knew why.

Going back to when I went school, I went to 2 different schools when I was in elementary. Ecumenical School and Don Bosco Technical Institute in Tarlac. On my years on Ecumenical where just like among others students. simple. fights, prankings, and many more. I think on how I look when I was that young. I didn’t care what is on my shirt and face. As long as I am happy playing and studying. When I went to DBTI, My surrounding got bigger including the variety of places I can go. Field, basketball courts, parks, chapel and many more. I felt glad I studied there. For those were the years I ‘ve known Don Bosco. A saint. I won’t tell anymore details about it now. But maybe on some other time. When I left Don Bosco to pursue my High School on TSU-Laboratory School, there, at that moment I changed completely. At the first 2 yrs there I just had minor changes on me but on the next 2 yrs there, I could say I am different. My teachers there were well-educated and I thank them for the opportunity of teaching me and as well as studying there. On my later yrs there I learned more about friendship. How you hang with them, mga pakikisama sa mabuti o masama, sa mga kalokohan, mga pang-aasar, trip trip, I studied there freely. and Of course, mawawala ba ang love. hehehehehehe. Meron ako minahal talaga and i know she knows naman. We just got a huge misunderstanding kaya eto, back to start ule kami. I didn’t have any girlfriends there(until now T_T). I miss those old days with my buddies and how we criticize every move of a teacher, teasing to death, yung mga yun. Lalo na si Donie ung kulang na lang umiyak sa diba Obs and Ron? Alam ko naman yung mga matatanda jan dumaan din sa ganyan. Like what I have heard in PATHWAYS, “hindi ko ipagpapalit mga experiences na to” I think these experiences are the ones nurtured me as I grow up. These made huge impacts on my life along with my family. Alam ko po medyo nabarkada ako noon pero hindi ko kayang ipagpalit ang mga yun para lang maging mabuti ang buhay ko. Mas maganda kasi na naranasan mo ring yung mga bagay na uminom, makitulog sa barkada, prom prom, mga date (pero wala akong official date noon), camping. BONDING I could say merged us together my friends. And for that BONDING I thank you guys.
Hindi naman masama siguro na naranasan kong yung magkaroon ng mabuti at masamang kaibigan. Basat alam ko kung saan ako lulugar. Kahit ganun ang imahe nila kahit ang mga iba sa mga yun hindi ko masyado ka close, TUNAY KO SILANG MGA KAIBIGAN. yun ang masasabi ko.

I think these things are not complete on detail but I just want you to get an idea on how I worked my life until now. Who were the ones who taught me and prepared me for being a man. Well another road opened for me and I grabbed it. And I know as well you have your own road to tackle. Heed these words from a sage “he who does not leave, will not experience the joy of returning” I won’t forget all of these memories I tend not to keep forever but a lifetime.

I remember making many day to day schedules, from way back when I was small until now. And none of those I followed strictly. There are always exemptions or delays, alibis too. Can I ask anybody how can I have a schedule that I will follow with no exemption?

Chunking down tasks I think is a great idea. It helps you delegate some time on other things. It stress-free. Because I am a type of person “mamaya na lang” “kaya yan mamaya na lng yan” . I always delay things. Sometimes I don’t delay, I do worse, not do it. I think doing them is easy to the point, yun nga, pinagpapaliban ko. Is it on my discipline? are there ways I will strongly do what I promised/tasks I must do? any suggestion I will accept. Even harsh ones. hoping for some replies.

It was a typical day yet I feel something special coming up my way. I am eager to see my group mates whom I have not seen for quite a while. I want to mingle with them and have chat with them. The topic for that day was “how do I go back to God”. Wow, I said this is interesting. We sat down on the back of the chapel. The speaker was a chubby guy, maybe 40 years of age, wears eyeglasses, has a lot of humor, and a God-centered man. His way of speaking grabs the attention of most of us. He gets the crowd on their ears and touches them with some funny things along on his topic. I will never forget the life story of this guy. He was a well educated man, starting his own life, when suddenly he became addicted to drugs, as soon as he said that I said “is this true? Is he joking? is that what he really is before? at first I didn’t believe him (until now I couldn’t believe) but little by little he convinced me that he is like that(some doubts still). One by one he’s family was turning away from him. He was returned to his mother and went rehabilitation. He was frustrated he said ( I feel the sincerity that time) “I want my family back”

One day he was invited to a seminar about God. Suddenly he thought on an idea to retrieve what he lose. The idea that he was gonna attend the seminar so that he will be adored by his family and wife and kids. But his main agenda that he wants to taste the sensation of drugs again. Guess what happens next? CORRECT! he got what he wants! nah, I’m just joking. Little by little he got closer to God during the seminar and that led to his New Life again and now he is a God-fearing man and in his life circulates God’s love.

Wow, I feel good for him. He manage to go out from HELL. That how he describe it. Fascinating isn’t it? AND WE WENT HOME! not.

I thought it was the gonna be the sharing part but suddenly the emcee called a man to share about his life. I have seen this man a couple of times at my uncle’s district on LNP(Ligaya ng Panginoon). This guys has the same fate too. Except his is kinda harsh more. When he was in the womb of his mother, They want to abort him. I kinda felt bad for him. Because it hurts a lot when you know that you’re parents want to abort you when you were still in your mother’s stomach. It’s like, they just made a mistake. They really didn’t like you to live. He grew up with his brothers and sisters watching as their father hurt their mother. As a result of this, He grew up wanting to take revenge. He wants to buy a gun so that he can shoot his father. Anger and misdeeds filled his heart. He starts to rebel against life. he drunk stink to death, sniffing marijuana, leading the “inuman” singing like a monkey (hehehehe). He insert funny tones of voice on some instances. He knows how to tickle the crowd while telling a not good fate he has when he was a child. But he said, all in all, I wont exchange my fate with anything else, ” hindi ako nagsisisi na naranasan ko yun” he utters. One night he went home drunk, He was awaited by his mother. He was surprised. His mother asks, why do you do this son? he answers crying “I too, don’t know the answer”. maybe at some point God is the only one who understands what we are going through. Because he is the one who gave us that fate. He uses that as a chance for us to ask for his guidance and we want to go back to him. I think that what he prayed for. Like the previous one he was also invited to a seminar and like the first one his life change, his parents became God fearing too. There’s nothing he could ask for. He also realized how bad they sang and what they are singing when they were drinking with his friends. He also said that its hard to part ways to his habits specially when he is the one promoting it.

Its hard to accept that you did something wrong when your heart is solid as a rock. Pride too can be a factor of accepting you made a mistake. Repentance is the key so that your heart will be free.